I first saw this expression was in the majestic movie about the turbulent trumpeter/singer Chet Baker.
I’ve always thought of artists as masters of disobedience.
That’s why I’ve always respected rebels/heros like Kurt Cobain.
Before coming in England I spent hours watching again and again interviews and documentaries about Michael Jackson, The Smashing Pumpkins and Nirvana.
I knew everything about them, not like a creepy fanatic but I could redraw the map of their artistic journey mentally.
I wouldn’t reject the fame, the awards, the show-biz, I’ve got to use all that for my purpose. But I’ve dreamed so hard about coming somewhere, have nothing set, grab a couple of instruments, a few trustworthy friends, a lot of courage, a lot of guts, a lot of dreams, take the road and just get lost.
Nirvana’s journey was just my dream, not the episode when they beat Michael Jackson on the Billboard charts, but how they started-get your drums, guitars a little bit of instant noodles and clean socks and just go.
That’s the mentality I had when I came to England. I wanted to meet with some dudes or dudettes, and take off, no care given.
All I met there were politicians guessing their chances.
That’s not a diss against England it’s a global phenomenon people want be the next internet buzz sitting on their sofa, they don’t wanna hit the road and go out there meeting with the People. And I find that a bit crazy it’s a flat lack of love towards the audience, the very people you swore eternal love to (only in your songs though).
So I naively showed up with my 90’s grunge boy mentality.
I hit a wall when I met with the senators and the parliament telling me I needed to have “professionally mixed, produced and mastered”. I had dream of playing sweaty bars where people flip opened beer can in the air and even woman got mad bears (haha) what d’mean holding your soy latte, “professionally blah blah blah”.
I wanted it all dirty, but they asked me to clean the mix.
Though, well I understand now all tracks have to be ready to be sold. It’s not about the adventure,
It’s about the product, not about the song. But to get the song you’ve got to get the artist and to get the artist you’ve got to get the journey.
That’s what music (crooks) professionals forget. That’s why you can have people with no background, with no personality that just “get offered” hit songs and the music execs only read “hit songs” they don’t care about the artistry.
But bland artists only leave blank pages in history.
Apart from in Billboard magazine.
Depth comes when you dive deep.
Artists with depth is what we’ll lacking right now,
“People wanna be a rockstar, don’t wanna live a rockstar.”
Those who lack talent or confidence are guessing their chances, while those who commit will enjoy the last dance. Us? Let us us not forget what matters most, let us not be concerned about this sentence “wining or losing”, come comrade let’s get lost.